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commented on March 24, 2014
There has been a change in my subjective experience over a period of a few months and I contribute that change to what will be discussed in this topic.
Several months ago, I addressed a comment to dustproduction and asked him why he was spamming all my topics. He responded by re posting a comment where I referred to him as an atheist.
Dustproduction’s atheism was obvious from his comments. I have known atheists who were proud of their atheism and I was puzzled by the degree of dustproduction’s anger toward me that would cause him to spam all my topics.
Due to the degree of his anger toward me, I considered the possibility that my understanding of atheism was lacking in some way, so I did a search to determine exactly what atheism is.
I stumbled upon a site where atheists were arguing among themselves relative to the meaning of atheism.
One argument was similar to ...it.is not that I do not believe in God or an afterlife, I simply have no belief system relative to God or an afterlife. After a while, it appeared to me that they were simply exhibiting their prowess on the play field of conceptual thought, so I left the site.
Rather than accept one of the definitions provided on that site or the subtle variances of definitions on other sites, I decided to create my own definition of atheism and spend some time experiencing atheism according to my definition…… simply for the experience.
The definition I decided on was: belief in absolutely nothing.....experience existence without any belief about anything.
This was difficult in the beginning, until I came upon a hidden belief that formed the foundation of my belief system.
That belief was firmly implanted in my belief system to the degree that it was recognized as absolute truth or an aspect of reality, rather than simply a belief. It dictated that I was a self that existed separate from or independent of the universe. This belief was so deeply ingrained that it was my experience.
When that belief was eventually successfully abandoned, a sense of liberation and peace took over. The incessant flow of reoccurring thoughts that pass through awareness (sometimes referred to as the monkey mind) ended.
Occasionally, a thought would appear and it would be necessary to reaffirm the position of absolutely no beliefs about anything.
After I was somewhat successful in maintaining the state of absolutely no beliefs, it was like taking a vacation from the world and its illusions, while sitting comfortably in my recliner.
The experience is rewarding to the degree that I now spend some time in my recliner with it just about every day.
The experience occurs within degrees of potency. If I am in my recliner with the intention of experiencing existence without belief the experience is beautifully potent.
If I am engaged in conversation with a neighbor, there are varying degrees of diffusion, but it remains in the background of awareness.
If you decide to experiment with this, don’t expect fireworks and orchestral music. The experience is a subtle sense of peace or liberation, but over a period of a few months, it has enhanced my subjective experience of what I am and am not.